I'm willing to take on all her struggles as my own.

Changes.

2011. What are you going to do? I'm planning on making significant changes to my lifestyle. I've been making bad choices during college and want to end those decisions. I feel that certain people are worrying about me due to the dumb decisions I have been making throughout my life. I'm not gonna ever drink like I used to, not gonna participate in many of the activities and I am changing for the better. I'm sick of having people worrying about me and realize that I need to change in order for these people to not worry anymore. The girl I care about, my family and friends do not have to worry about me anymore. I'm a new me. A better me. That "lovelife" phrase is not evident in the way I have been carrying myself and I want to say that I'm sorry. I have really messed up over the past few weeks especially. Being 21 doesn't give you the right to do stupid things. I'm gonna need some help from my family and friends but I feel that I can count on the people who mean so much to me to push me away from those activities I used to do. I'm blessed and I want to continue to be blessed . I do lovelife and you'll see it over the next few weeks just how much. Thank you to everyone who has been there for me throughout this "finding myself" phase of life. I'm gonna be the person you all want me to be. I'll show you just how much I do lovelife. Lovelife.

Rough Times

So I've come across some rough times in the last week and a half, stupid decisions of drinking too much and making myself look like an awful person in people's eyes. I blacked out for the first time in my life on Saturday the 5th and made an ass out of myself in front of some people that mean the world to me. For that I apologize to them. I'm still learning from my mistakes and hope that this doesn't mark the end of something good. This song gave me so much hope though and I hope it inspires love within the people I love. Lovelife.